易燃易爆炸

为我撩人还为我双眸失神
图我情真还图我眼波销魂
与我私奔还与我做不二臣
夸我含苞待放还夸我欲盖弥彰

请我迷人还请我艳情透渗
似我盛放还似我缺氧乖张
由我美丽还由我贪恋着迷
怨我百岁无忧还怨我徒有泪流

                         ——《易燃易爆炸》


最近有点着迷的一首歌
但是我喜欢的不是原版陈粒唱的
而是青春有你2 的舞台版
因为每个人的声音都好有辨识度
歌词有点深奥
我开始也有点看不懂
上网查找了一番
得出的结论是

你想要我这样
又想要我那样
你TM要我怎样！

太喜欢太霸气了

What a 2020

从小就一直在听人家说2020宏愿
课本上也辉煌纪录那些骛远的目标
好像时间一到2020年就是跨向另一个世界
心里虽然对实现程度没有抱太大的希望
却也是会很好奇这一年的光景

可谁也没料到
原本寄托着新希望的这一年
却带着病疫肆虐  封城锁国的气象
恐惧与不安的心情在空气中弥漫
担忧和失去的情景化成数据在无止境增长
在武汉肺炎还未是我们主要关注的新闻
武汉市毫无预警地宣布封城
当全世界还在放眼关注六天之内建立方舱医院的进展
口罩和消毒液已经开始在市场上断货
在武汉肺炎还在争论此名字是否有贬义之时
它悄悄地入侵
我们最终还是掉以轻心了

自紧急宣布行动管制令那天起
已经步入了23天
病例仍旧每天上百单的增加
却开始有了点起色
警方的强制和各方的劝导似乎起了成效
看来管制的行动虽然冰冷霸道
还是管用的
而当世界各地进入备战的状态
暂停了76天的武汉市今天苏醒了
普天盖地的 “武汉你好” 文字令人看了热泪盈眶
但是！
这场战役远远还未结束
中国打了上半场
下半场才刚刚拉开序幕呢

这注定是一场硬仗
我们即使手无寸铁也要迎战
因为我们输不起生离死别

Afterlife is crowded.
So please stay alive.
I will never want to lose you.

2020

新的一年，新的视野，新的愿望。

还留着的人，很谢谢你还在。

已经失去的人，也谢谢你曾经出现。

虽然已经迟了9天写新一年的感受，还是想记录一下，随便写写什么都好。我只是想跳脱平时工作上被条条框框束缚的写法，看看自己还剩几斤两，看看我还能写出些什么。

新一年，什么新的目标，什么新的改变，我觉得把这些放到我身上来说，根本无从而谈。我还是老样子的我，没有改变。我觉得生活嘛，平凡就好，不需要大起大落，也不需要大喜大悲，无风无浪的一天已经是最大的喜事。所以去年的最后一天，我喝了一罐塞在冰箱里有一年了的啤酒，听着窗外的烟花声，继续写有点来不及的稿，醒来继续上班。假期啊，我大概已经丢失了很久。

唯一不同的是，我比往年更希望你好。不敢说我能体会你的伤痛，但我敢说我看着你一步一步走来，路没少坎坷。故事听起来总是精彩的，而我却希望你不要有太多的故事。在你能侃侃而谈的背后，究竟花了多少力气，才让你看起来好好的。在一个人的时候，在每个安静的深夜里，我有时会在想，我们究竟是得到的多，还是失去的更多，为什么开始和结束，会是同一件事情。

好了，才开始进入第九天，不想写太过悲伤的话。你要谨记着，你是怎么，走到这里的。

盛夏青春里，我感恩有你。

无论有没有一起并肩而行，我也想和你看最美的风景。

2020的我们，都要好好的。

Never Stop Being Different Please

People are afraid of what's different. 

They scare of the unpredictable and then they started hurt people who live differently. 

They expect everyone to look and act a certain way, that is a term for that, conformity.  

But the thing is, if you are taught to hide what makes you different, you end up feeling shame about who you are and what you want. 

And that is not okay.
You will never be happy when you trying to be someone you're not.
There's nothing wrong with being different. 

TGIF that's been awhile

It's been awhile haven't got to enjoy TGIF
since all the friends that used to ask me to drink with are now far apart
I'm not a person who obsessed in drinking
but I have to admit that I kinda love the feeling

When you sitting in a bar
order an alcoholic drink and it feels good
It really help me get off from my mind for a moment
and throw myself in the conversation with the people around
It is good to actually talking and sharing things with all those people who I want to be with
It feels like the noise and the other people in the bar are all gone for a moment
and so with the tonnes of problem
What you have to do is just chill and enjoy the moment
looking at those faces and you know you are the blessed one
because there are someone who wants to spend their time with you
just like the way you do

Life sometimes is bored
A lot fun is out there
and I guess I just feel bored in having a life which is always on the rules
Gotta try something new and different before it is late
but of course I know where my limit is
It is good to know those people
who show me the other ways of living your life

Okay
It just me
who started to miss my drinking kaki

Be Alright

And my friend say
I know you love her but it's over mate
It doesn't matter
Put the phone away
It's never easy to walk away
Let her go
It'll be okay

It's gonna hurt for a bit of time
So bottoms up
Let's forget tonight
You'll find another and you'll be just fine
Let her go
It'll be alright

-- Dean Lewis, "Be Alright"

Keep looping in my earphone and head.
This song is amazing and brainwashing.

Love while you have

Love what you
have, before life
teaches you to love
what you lost.