文·字的心情: March 2013

Monday, March 25, 2013

感慨

看到你的照片
你变了
已经不是我当初认识你的样子
有一点点不习惯
现在更厉害了
到国外去念书
离我们越来越远了
我们何年才能见上一面呢？

我们大家好久都没有互动了吧？
连group 里面的气氛都没有当初的热闹
只是时不时有一两个人分享一些东西
真是今非昔比
我一个人在这里念书
有时候收的风会比较慢
但更多时候我都不知道你们在当中发生的一些事
我很想尝试再去参与你们的世界
所以我都会去看你们分享你们自己的照片
听你们分享的歌
看你们的状态
去了解你们最近都喜欢上了什么
在做什么

有时候看到你们上线
我都很想找你们聊天
但是我怕我们早就没有了共同的话题
气氛会很尴尬
我怕我们都变了
变得不是当初的我们
你们的一串串电话号码
我越来越少拨
越来越少发信息
却永远也不会删掉的

Saturday, March 23, 2013

!!!

This time, I hope everything is over.
I hope I can have a well rest this weekend.
But yet, it is not.
What I received is not what I paid.
I really put a lot of effort in it
until I burn my midnight oil until 4 or 5am
until the whole night I didn't sleep
until I back from school straight away sit in front of my computer to complete it and I haven't bath yet
until I need to call meal delivery and eat in a small space beside my computer
until every morning I late to class.
Is this the mark I received after I had paid a lot?
My group has 4 ppl
but it seems like only have 3 members.
Yes, he has done somethings but those things we need to check for it again and again.
All the graphs he done I need to redo it at the last minutes.
Not only me suffer, one of my friend also experience same things with me.
She help him to correct all the mistakes he made: grammar, punctuation, spacing and so on.
Until she hit the table and surprise me.
At the time we fight for the assignment, what has he done? Watching tv? Sleeping?
When the presentation mark came out is not what we expected.
The mark she get is the same mark with him.
She cried. And I cried too as I get 1 mark higher than her only.
Is it fair? He done too least things and he can have the same mark with us.
The lecturer too. Both of us hate him.
One group before us, all the members get full mark as some of them only present about introduction, conclusion and 2 or 3 graphs.
Only 2 or 3 sentences they talk and they can get full mark.
What about us?
I and she present about the most important parts and yet the mark we get is not the full mark.
She present the section of budget. Every data on the screen is the price, the number.
The stupid lecturer said she get less mark is because of she read from the slide.
Why can't she read from the slide. All is number or she need to memorise all the number for not to read from the slide?? The number is not 1 or 2 digits but up to 5 digits. Is this called fair to her??
Or next time we just only need to present the introduction and conclusion only for getting high mark?
The least part we present, the high mark we get. Is that what you mean, dear lecturer?

I hate this! I hate him! I almost hate the world!

Did I owe him or the world anything??

This semester I really do the best for my assignment.
As we know you are the most “难搞” lecturer
everything we do was so careful as we scare you angry.
But what we worry finally came true.
I don't know what I have done....
Did what I do is worth with this mark??
And for those who critique me or comment me

PLEASE DON'T SIMPLY JUDGE ME BASED ON WHAT YOU SEE BEFORE YOU UNDERSTAND MY SITUATION!

If you monitor me for all the time, you will know how much I put my effort in this assignment.
Until I don't know when is day when is night.
Finally I know what you sacrifice cannot 100% pay back to you
This sentence is true.
This is the first time I feel that the world is against me.
Or maybe I had too high expected on myself until I get myself into unhappy.
Somehow I still want to emphasis that

我没有对不起任何人!